Final Update

Hello lovely Reader,
I have reversed my decision to leave the blog just as it is, and have decided to give you one final update. I will attempt to bring everything full-circle. So here goes, dear Reader, and thank you for listening and responding to me throughout these past few months.

Just like I entered a new realm of being that included sadness and despair when I began going through the fraction (or, breakup), I've entered a new one now: A realm of renewel and light.

In January, the opportunity to cross paths with Ex arose, and I took it. I hadn't seen Ex since around the time of the breakup, which had occurred months before. This whole fraction experience has been one of documentation for me, and I wanted to experience that potentially dreaded "first encounter" post-fraction- to see what it's really like to be in close proximity to one another once again, and to feel the feelings that come along with it. And well...it was awkward. Really awkward. My pal Lexie predicted beforehand that upon setting my eyes on Ex, "You'll probably feel a mixture of nostalgia, sadness, anger, and confusion. But you'll just feel too verklempt to do anything about it."

And oh, how she was spot on.

But here's the beautiful thing, Reader: Even though I did feel that mixture of emotions, I wasn't mourning the lost relationship. In fact, in hindsight, seeing Ex in the flesh made me realize how grateful I was to have had him in my life at all, however briefly that was in the grand scheme of things. Six months ago, I would have seen Ex's newly-tagged Sadie Hawkins photos from this weekend, looked at his date, and thought to myself 'that should be me.' But now, I've reached the point where I want Ex to be happy, I want him to have a fun date and an enjoyable time with his friends, even though I'm not one of them. I'd like to compare my relationship experience with Ex to a book: It had a beginning, a middle, and an end. It wasn't until I really got over the fraction, that I was able to put the book back on the shelf, and take it out whenever I pleased, looking fondly over the already-written and finished chapters of my life.

And thus, my life has gone on. I've experienced new crushes, blossomed as a person, and feel completely able to embrace each day as it comes- a complete 180 from my fraction days. And if you're going through a fraction Reader, you will experience this newfound realm of being as well. It may take time, but you will heal. You will feel happy again. And you will love and be loved again.

I will never be able to thank you enough for sharing this momentous journey of my adolescent life with me: My very. First. Heartbreak. All of your kind reponses and sentiments have made me feel like this blog was actually worth writing! I wish you only the best. Go in peace, walk softly on your path, and may light shine on you all the days of your life.

Best,
Anna